Penetration of the Self Space

Self space is a emotional and psychological sphere created by a person where they never want other to penetrate into. But most of the time unknowing such thin layer of boundary is impinged by love and care from one individual to other. The individual whose sphere is torn cannot event protest or cannot defend despite of pain or uneasiness they are facing.

I love my wife Ratika a lot. I am worried if she gets hurt by someone and try to protect her from all the unfavourable conditions. I am too protective that I cant even think about a tiny scratch in her emotional being. However, I never realized my care and love will one day tear her thin layer of the self-space.

I now realize my love and care towards her is turning into obligation. My love and care is totally based on the things what I believe is true. I don’t know when our mutual love changed into a self-centred and self-examined love and care. Love must benefit both of the individual and must result in mutual understanding. I think if there is compromise in one individual, then love and care between them is out of question.

 

Socio-cultural Colorblindness

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monkey-vision

Visual perception of different individuals

Few weeks ago, I took Precious, my angel to a eye specialist for routine checkup. After checkup, doctor told me that she was colorblind i.e inability to distinguish the colors basically red, green and blue. Thank god, it was of mild type and won’t affect her daily tasks. I was shocked to know that she was colorblind and we didn’t even realize about it till she was on her sweet 16. Though I knew it was genetic disorder and had no cure, I was eager to know who had such gene. Is it me or Ritika, my wife? So, me along with Ritika, went for checkup the following day. I couldn’t trust my ears when I heard Ritika was colorblind. I was ashamed that I was unaware about it, even though we were together for last 22 years.

On the way back home, I asked Ritika pointing a seat cover, “Hey, Rits the cover is red, can’t you see it.” She replied,”Yep I know its red, I can see its dark red.” According, the eye specialist, the colorblind person cannot see red, green or blue. They just had adapted their mind and eye to distinguish the colors based on their intensities. So, I was stuck with the question what is color. Is it what our eye decides or our mind decides. I realized that the actual dark red color I am seeing can be a light red to somebody else. But its our adaptation of the perception of color when we were toddler to present day distinguishes different colors. So, its the perception that distinguishes two or more contrasting facts.

I always find myself in a cage of questions related to different social problems prevailing in our society and want get out of the cage. And I am supremely confident that every problem has solutions. After the incident, I am fully aware that the cause for such issues are socio-cultural color blinded perceptions about different circumstances which is transfered to us from our social norms and traditions. And, only solution is to identify and correct the defective socio-cultural gene sequence responsible for such blindness. I am damn sure that identification and correction of such gene sequence will not only solve but eradicate it from the society.

So, its our responsibility to search, identify and correct the defective sequence to make our society a Shangri-La.

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“Lost Princess Regained”

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Innocent face, rolled hair
a pure heart which is fair
princess was with her smile
and a curious mind
she had confidence
with a fragrance of arrogance
she was shining like star
giving us light to glare

But the time has changed
our princess is tamed
by so called her name and fame

pre innocent face, pre rolled hair
pure heart which is still fair
but a forceful smile
with a confused mind
she had lost her confidence
and no tinge of arrogance
she still shines like star
but afraid to glare

But time can be changed
princess can be regained
name and fame can be left
making princess her self mate

Again a innocent face, rolled hair
pure heart which always was fair
filled with perfect smile
curious and intelligent mind
armored by confidence
with a tinge of arrogance
She will again shine like a star
giving us opportunity to glare

The time will come
I know the time will come
when princess self is her mate
carving her own fate
carving her own fate.

Eve-teasing

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आज म बलत्कृत भय
हो साची आज म बलत्कृत भय
आफ्नै ठुला दाजुहरु बाट म आज बलत्कृत भय
न त उनिहरु ले हात पात गरे
न त उनिहरु ले मलाई अर्ध नग्नन नै परे
तै पनि पटक पटक सामुहिक बलत्कार गरे
मेरो कमलो मस्तिस्कले ओडेको ओड्ने धुजा धुजा परे
अनि पटक पटक बलत्कार गरे
मेरो स्वाभिमान माथि हात पात गरे
अनि सबैकोसामु पटक पटक बलत्कार गरे
हो सचि आज म बलात्कृत भय
सबै को सामु पटक पटक सामुहिक बलत्कृत भय